Cocoon

Having 3~4 days left till my early applications are due, life is moving at a really fast pace. But I know the time will bring the end of my trials. No remnants, no trace, no residual feelings. So for now I am staying in a cocoon, so I can hide from other turbulences of life. Just wait until 1/1/2012, for shall come out of my cocoon with my wings 

Cleaning

This year, I have decided to clean my room every Sunday. So on Sunday afternoons (usually around 4 p.m), I clean my room. When I first started this routine, it felt as if I was obliged to do so. However, I found out that when I am cleaning my room I am focused. Vaccuming the floor, folding my laundry, and cleaning the desktops. The tangible work makes me get away from the heinous thoughts of instability. Maybe because I am tired of the fact that there are no clear signs for me right now. As a senior applying to colleges, I am not sure whether I did well on the SAT's, nor am I confident that I will get into a college of choice. The process of cleaning, picking up the broom to vaccuming the floors, makes me happy that I am confident of what to do and the fact that things are getting done. I like to see things get done. Maybe it's just me trying to bring back the analog values back to the digitized society. 

List of mind-boggling things as of 10/16/11

While in the shower this morning, I felt the need for re-organization. The ideas that I had before september (except for the some that are still in place) disappeared, or maybe I turn/merged them into another. So I decided to make a few lists. This one is the list of mind boggling things as of today. By mind-boggling, I mean things that take up massive space in my brain.

1. AP Chemistry

In the first 20 minutes of this class, my teacher covered all the materials we learned last year. Its fast-pace and unfamiliar topics makes my brain boggle. My first quiz grade was a disaster; furthermore, ever since then I have been re-setting my record for the lowest score I have ever gotten. I really have to step it up, and take this class seriously.

2. Chinese food

Before the year started, I promised myself that; I will not order more than 3 times a week this school year, it would help me lose weight/save some cash. Of course, the idea was only theoretical; I have been ordering about 5 times a week for the past two months. 5 times a week? thats monday through friday. I heard school food has gotten better this year, but how would I know? I barely even walk down there to check in.

3. College applications 

I was not going to bring this up in any of my posts, but what can I say? I am only a senior. I just got done with 3 applications and still have 15 more to go. At this point of time, I am sure a lot of seniors are sure where their first choice college is. I am too, my top choice is New York University. I am ready to become a torch, so better now than later, accept me.

Fragments

A strange stream of thought appeared with the suddenly cold weather. With my gamut thoughts ranging from "What to wear this fall?" to "What lies beyond?" (By the way, military boots are coming back). 

Today, while walking towards my second hole at Ingleside c.c. I found a gigantic acorn under a tree (literally it was the biggest acorn I have ever seen in my life)! I wanted to give it to a squirrel, but apparently squirrels do not think of the me the same way I think of them. 

On the ride back home, I flipped through some old pictures on my phone. I used to have a big superman diamond for home screen of my phone. Which is why the blog is named this way. Superman used to be my favorite superhero while growing up (Well, it was all due to the fact that my brother took my favorite Goku action figure, so the only action figure I had that could fight Goku off was Superman). His symbol to me was the sign of justice and hope. 

My broken diamond of Justice and hope, does not have a significant impact my life anymore. It seems like I cannot take the step towards righteousness if I want to pursue the dreams I have. But my diamond, I believe, still exists somewhere. Might be in my closet, or might be in the desk in the Oval office. My ultimate objective is to find those snippets of my diamond and putting them together. Maybe as little as 0.1% a time (for example: today, I left the acorn in the middle of a fairway, so the squirrels could see/eat it), but I will find all of those snippets.